Whispering "I miss you my baby. I miss you." In my dreams it might all seem real. But I know that in truth, its just a dream. I couldn't do anything to change her mind now. I sigh everyday, but it wouldn't help me, she's thirteen hundred miles away. I have thought of going to where she was, but I do not have the funds. In my dreams, we were kissing and hugging, so lovable and sweet. In my dreams, we were holding hands, nothing on earth mattered but us. In my dreams, we were so in love. And in my dreams, how sadly it is, ends, with a tragic end. Because you see, folks believe that in all good things, there are an end, but I did not believe it, no, I thought we were meant to be together.
Slowly I recollected the memories of us together when we were back home, we would be hanging out the whole day, laughing, making out, having fun, we would laze on the bed until we fall asleep, although, we were tired because of making out, I know it is all confidential, so I won't go into further details. Our memories were so little, but yet it was memorable. I would never forget what we have accomplished together, achieved together. We fought, argued, most of our times together, but when we were happy, the world mattered like next to nothing. We were in love. So in love. But I didn't know, that everything would change one day. You had to go back to your home, your parents wanting you to be back, I would be happy for you.
The date scheduled for you to arrive home was two weeks from today's date. Why was it so fast, I wouldn't know. She didn't know either. Our two weeks passed on, again, memorably. We had fun going out, shopping, movie, having our private moments. We took a lot of pictures. Like a lot of pictures. I believed that it was all just a joke for her to be home. But then, the space flight ticket arrived at my doorstep. I took it with a heavy heart. I didn't want to let her go. I didn't want her to leave home, if she could, or would, just take me along. I wouldn't mind finding a job there. Where she was staying, in a small town, the place is cozy. She showed me her parents, and even told her parents about me. Her parents seemed happy about it. Although they didn't give a go ahead.
The day arrived when she had to board the plane home. She said she would miss me very much, and miss our moments together. I said "Yea, me too my baby. I love you with all my heart." All she did was nod, and i saw tears running down her cheeks. All I could do was hug her and wish her it would all go well. She stepped onto the plane. Before she left, she left a note and a present on my working desk. I watched as the plane left to its destination. I walked out of the airport with a heavy heart, everything was gone. I didn't feel any cheer, any laughs, oh her laugh, its the best laugh you would ever hear. It makes her look so cute. And her smile, her smile just melts my heart away. I was thinking about what we had done in two weeks before she left. It was the best two weeks of our lives as we did not fought, at all.
We promised to chat with each other everyday without fail, and if possible, video calling. I was saving my money for an investment, so I did not took out any money, because then I can visit her every month! As I was driving in my car back to my home, I thought about our intimate moments together, it was ecstatic. I have to admit, she wanted to offer herself to me before she left, but then I said no. She knew it was wrong too, and we were planning our wedding, the very next year. And I also have to admit, as a guy, I wanted her too, but I did not want to engage in anything or what soever. I reached home and quickly went up to my desk and took the note and present she left me. The first thing I did was to read the letter she wrote me.
"Dear Bob,
Our relationship has been the best thing that ever happened to me. Without you, my heart has an empty hole. Without you, there would be a missing puzzle. And if you were to be gone, the hole would never be recovered. I just want you to know how much I love you and cherish you. You are my best treasure. You are my love. Take care and miss me! :)
I love you forever.
I miss you everyday.
Signed;
Elaine. <3 xoxo!
I cried. I just cried. I couldn't take it, losing the girl I really loved. I know, I've done her wrong, I've done my mistakes, but I'm putting them all behind me. It didn't matter now. Because I just lost her. After I calmed down, I opened the present she gave me, it was a photo album of us together, since the day we met, until the day she left. A full three months. All I did after work everyday was sit at home and wait for her to be online. We would chat till the wee hours of the morning and then only we would go to bed.
One week passed. I didn't know this would happen, I didn't. I thought she was back there to help her parents in their business. But then, when we were chatting, she told me something which hurt me till today. Her parents had an arranged marriage for her. It was with a man which would secure her family's wealth for generations. She told me the guy was her friend when she was little, but she didn't have any feelings for him. And now they're getting married. I couldn't take it. I cried while we were video calling. It hurt me so bad I just wanted to die and didn't know of her marriage. We were so close. And her parents just shattered our dreams. I don't mean to blame them, they're securing their children's wealth in the future.
She told me that she would not have any intimate relationship with him no matter they're married, to her, its a business marriage, not a formal marriage. She keep telling me that. But I couldn't take it all, the girl of my dreams, marrying someone else. I dwell too much in that thought that it almost drove me crazy. She tried so many times to tell me, but I just didn't get it. She finally gave up, but she told me something, she would give me a chance. One last chance, just to be with her. I can't help it. I needed the chance at all costs.
She still loves me. Now, I can't do anything. But she said that if I could change myself, and prove to her that she wrong, I might get a chance. This time I won't fail. I want her back, at all costs. I want her to be mine, mine forever. I wish she just would understand my situation, all I want from her is her. I just want her to know what I feel, how I feel about certain feelings I have, what is my current situation, I want her to know, that I'm hurting. Really badly. And I blew my chances. Now its all up to me to change things. I really want her. I'm going to change what I can, as hard as I can. I'm going to change because I love her with all my heart. I love her so so much.
To;
V.E.L. (She knows who she is.)
I LOVE YOU.
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