"Where, where am I? This don't feel right at all." I chuckled as I tried to open my eyes. And all I could see was the a never ending white light shining directly into my eyes.
"Oh that blinding light." I groaned.
I tossed and turned. But somehow I can't sleep. I got up and walked around. "This feels really weird. Why do I feel like I'm floating? Is this even real at all?"
I paused. My eyes were blurry. All I can see is a room, which looked like mine but I can't focus my eyes. It all seems like I am in paralysis, but I can walk around the room. I can move about, a bit slower than walking. Feels like, drifting? Why am I drifting? Am I floating?
I looked down at my feet, and I swear my eyeballs were out of their sockets when I saw that I was about seven inches off the ground. I freaked. I couldn't really tell, if it was seven inches or five inches. All I know is that I was floating. I lingered around the room for quite sometime. And then I saw a glimpse of her, passing by the room door. I followed the shadow. I moved out of the room into a hallway, which what seems like quite familiar. Somewhere I may have been before.
Then it hit me, I was in her house! And that was her bedroom. I looked around to find out where she is. I couldn't find her, so I slowly drifted in the hallway of her house which what seems like an eternity of endless hallway. And then further up in front of me I saw an opening, which seems like a door, there was light shining out from the door. I drifted closer towards the opening.
Then I suddenly heard voices. It sounded like two people were arguing. I peeked into the room and what I saw blew me completely. I trembled at the doorway. I tried to calm myself down for about a solid thirty minutes. I wasn't really calm when I peeked again, they were still arguing, again I trembled. My legs were weak, I felt like falling but I couldn't, I felt like sitting but I couldn't. I feared the worst.
"Could I be dead?" I questioned myself and chuckled. "I must be so drunk on beer right now in her house." I laughed at myself. But still, I could hear them arguing. It was about some petty issue. I could hear them in the faint distance arguing about groceries and the ones he bought wrongly. I smirked and thought what an asshole the guy was. Such simple task and yet he screws it up. "Well, i guess no one is perfect, right?" I thought to myself.
Slumped on the floor, floating five to seven inches off the ground, I tried to stand up, it seemed pretty hard, as though I have no bones left in my body. I touched my left arm. Goosebumps came all over me. I was without bone. Again I smirked, "I wonder what kind of drink I drank which made me this way." Still, I was smiling. This is all just an illusion.
Because, who I saw was me and her. We were arguing about the groceries she asked me to buy and yet I bought the wrong one. I mean, I was in a rush, but yeah, no more excuses. It was my fault. I screwed up. I was supposed to buy white bread and I bought buns instead. Silly mistake, yeah, but we needed it as we were going to make egg sandwich for tomorrow. It was pretty late.
I knew she had a rough day. I too had a rough day. But I suddenly lost my temper. I remembered scolding her back with hurtful words. As I lay there slumped on myself, I thought, "This is the part."
"If next time I buy wrong you go and buy yourself. I don't want to buy already. I couldn't find parking and it was jam. Maybe next time you should go buy it instead of me."
She just stared at me. I knew then, what I said was wrong. I was giving excuses to save myself from the situation and putting the blame on her. I saw in her eyes, it started to swell up. I was very angry. In my mind all I thought was the thank that I did not receive. But then what was she thinking? I stopped my thoughts and looked at her. Her eyes were already swelling with tears.
She turned around and sat on the couch. "Why am I still here?" I thought. I closed my eyes as I knew what would happen next, it was a very emotional situation for us. I drifted in my thoughts. I opened my eyes to the same hallway as at her house. But this time it branched out to different exits, on left and on the right were doorways, all with lights shining out of it. I got up from the now empty room and drifted towards the hallway, "Maybe, if I keep following this hallway I will end up awake!" I thought to myself.
I drifted past, the first doorway was a room, with a computer and Facebook Messenger on the screen. The guy was me, obviously, typing something on his keyboard while grinning. "Ah." I thought, "I remember this one clearly." This happened when I asked her out for the first time. I know, Facebook Messenger. Don't question me. Suprisingly, she agreed. "HAH! I thought. JACKPOT!" I exclaimed in my thought.
I was so excited as I set it on a weekend, full day. Ten in the morning till eight in the night was our agreement. It was afterall, a date. And the weekend is about 2 days away. I had to prepare myself. I heard a faint voice behind me, "Hello." Came the whisper. I turned around to my back to see who it was. I froze. It was her and she was looking directly at me across the room. I turned to the front and it was all fading away. I turned back and slowly drifted towards the other door.
It was another happy memory we had together. It was the fifth date. We went for a movie and then dinner at a restaurant in the city. It was quite pricey as it kinda stretched my money for that month.
She looked at me and said, "The next date I'll pay." I looked at her and said,"Nah its fine dear. I'll manage." She looked at me with her adorable glaring eyes. "Okay, okay. You'll pay on the next date." I agreed in defeat. She smiled. I will never ever, forget that smile. It was the smile that melt my heart away. Instantly.
The room started to fade. I turned to drift out to the other rooms, as far as I can see, there were like a few more doors, roughly about five more doors. I knew, I knew that this is real. I am not alive. I am dead. This must be the seven minutes of brain time left before I am completely dead as an article I read said. It feels so strange.
I drifted to the third room. There I saw the two of us cuddling on her bed, watching a movie, I forgot what it was actually. Its like the information suddenly disappaears from my head. Another one of our memories as after the movie we both stayed up late on the bed just talking about her past memories and my life. Interesting and sad moments in our lifes.
Slowly again, the room fades. I start to worry. "What if this is the last few memories I will have of her before it all ends?" I start to panic. Not that I could do anything about it, but my heart felt restless. I need to get out of this treacherous place. The fourth room. I remember this one vaguely, but yeah, this was another one of our happy memories together.
It was on a weekend, she had a photoshoot going on and it was our anniversary day. She did texted me in the morning that she may not make it for dinner as the photoshoot would take quite some time and their technical team is facing some difficulty. I've already planned out a surprise dinner for her around their photoshoot area, so I wasn't really upset. I just pretended to be upset that she might be able to make it later tonight.
I actually already prepared some gifts for her, her favourite chocolate, her favourite flower, which are tulips by the way, her favourite dish, went all the way to her favourite restaurant to take away, and a soft teddy bear toy, one she have not had yet. I was kinda stalking my girlfriend from a far, she seemed so cheerful but in her eyes, she's exhausted. I can tell, I've known her for quite some time, even before we were couples I could see it in her eyes. It was about seven in the late evening when she texted me that it should be over in an hour. Our dinner plans was at eight.
I replied with a sad smiley face. She replied saying she will treat us and do anything I want for a whole day in the coming weekend. I acted as though I was really sad. She tried so hard to please me. It was about seven forty five when she texted me saying the photoshoot was over. I replied, be there in a jiffy. I was, I was really near, like a minute walk away from her. She was still hanging out with her colleagues, they were asking her to eat with them as they were going to a nearby cafe to eat.
I was already behind her when she declined a third time. Her colleagues looked at me and they all almost synchronizing-ly said "Oh." That was when she turned behind and saw me. The look on her face. She was surprised and sad at the exact same moment. I smiled and just hugged her and said it's all okay. I did told her I set up a reservation at eight, and if we miss it they will open it to other patrons.
She kind of sobbed when I hugged her. And then I explained it all that I prepared a nice dinner for just the two us back home, she said bye to her colleagues and we proceeded to walk to my car and when she opened the door she was dumbfounded. She stared at me with her big round eyes. Sort of glaring, sort of happy mixed with sadness.
It ended a good anniversary for us.
I drifted slowly again, my thoughts thinking that I could get use to this. Its not that hard, is it? The fifth room. This was the day something happened at one of the events she attended. I wasn't there when it happened, I was there after it happened, trying to calm her down and get her mood back up. See, she is a cosplayer too, most gaming streamers would at least take on three different jobs at the same time. And the unforgettable memory that happened was someone molested her and she did not notice who it was. It shook her a lot, I mean, I won't get it, since I'm not a girl.
But I guess it kinda feels like an unpleasant feeling as if someone has already taken advantage of you. The situation ended quite quickly as we couldn't apprehand the suspect and I've already calmed her with ice cream, I mean, it was a desperate situation. Funny. Gosh, I miss her so much.
The room fades, the sixth room. This is a memory of which I thought of her. So here's the story, before I met her, we were strangers. I actually saw her from Facebook. I tried to talk to her but to no avail, I still remember. And finally I decided to do something I have never done before, I messaged her saying that I have a business idea for her, detailing what products we could sell, that was how we actually met. We met at a cafe nearby her house, I explained to her that it was my first time doing this, and that I think her fans would love the end product.
She agreed and set up a poll on Facebook to check the feedback. It was a success. Pre-orders were all sold within the day! I was surpised! We didn't set a high pre-order volume, it was about fifty units, I still won't mention what product it is. Just use your imagination. Fifty units and in different patterns, all sold out. Oh wow the joy. Well after that we started hanging out quite a lot as we brainwashed ideas to get multiple products out for her fans. I mean, even other than her fans, her events she attended we also set up a booth, most of it sold out pretty quickly.
She was like an idol. Like wow. I was totally mind-blown! It went steady for quite awhile. Then one day I asked if she would like to go on a date with me. Her relationship then wasn't stable. She was emotional most of the time, so I tried my best to please her ideas and her requests. I didn't earn much from the sales, I earned her trust and her happiness. I used that to my advantage and the few weeks we went out together was the best of my life. I will never forget the memories we had.
The room again faded away into thin air, at the back of me was nothing but black and darkness. The final room, I drifted slowly, trying to stop myself but I couldn't. I entered the room. I looked up, feeling dejected and happy at the same time, I saw a crossroad. It was a four lane road and I saw her at the opposite lane. She wasn't looking at me and somehow I cannot hear my voice. I decided to just drift there, well, because, since I am floating, the cars will pass right through me. I drifted slowly towards her and suddenly a loud sound,"BAM!"
I heard various voices and there was one which captured my hearing, it was a sob. I tried to open my eyes. It was her voice. I need to open my eyes. I need to hug her. I need to tell her that all this time, I am in love with her.
"Babe!"
"Babe!" came a voice while sobbing.
"Yes?" I answered in a weak voice, tasting blood in my mouth.
"Oh my gosh you are alright. Thank god. You got to lay still okay?" she said with a loving tone in her voice.
"Okay." I replied. "What happened?" I continued.
"You'll be alright. You got hit by a speeding car while trying to save a kid." she replied.
"Ah." I remember now. "How long was I unconscious?" I asked her with a soft voice.
"Shh. Just rest okay? I love you."
"I love you too." I said with a smile on my face.
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